Day Ten: Fall Is Beautiful!

Natalie, again. I love taking pictures of this little one! She's too sweet.

Day Nine: Workin' Woman!

I start my CNA (STNA) class on Tuesday! From 8am-4pm every day for 2 weeks. After that, I'm working at the local hospital. I am SO ready for this! I'm anxious because it's at the career center. That means there will be LOTS of HS students AND adults there to learn. Big crowds of strangers make me realllly anxious, but I'm going to get PAST that for the sake of my future, and more importantly-for the sake of the ability to care for my son financially.
I already researched everything about moving to TX and this job. The certification transfers with no problems at all. You simply contact the boards of nurses in the state you're moving to, send them your info and photo i.d., and then they send you your new cert to your new address. I also looked up CNA jobs opportunities in the DFW area...there are literally THOUSANDS. It's the job with the HIGHEST demand in that area, right now! CAN YOU SAY YAYAYAYAYAYAYYYYYY? Okay. Rant over.

Day Eight: Autumn in Ohio

Damn. It's just so beautiful.

Day Seven: My son, again!

Basically, I've run out of words for this lil' man. He's my world.

Day Six: Sorry about the break!

My blog was unavailable from the time of my Day Five post until now. So, here's day 6, though it's pretty darn late!
One of my absolute favorites from a shoot I did with Michelle Black. We were really into it, this time. I don't believe either of us has gotten so emotionally involved in a shoot, before. She told me it was by far some of her best work, and I'm certain is was mine. While lying in this alley way by CPAC in down town Cambridge, I felt like a victim, relating to the things I have already gone through and things my friends have gone through. Lying on the ground with my dress pushed up and my limbs fragile and broken looking, I went to a place in my mind I didn't know existed. This allowed me to connect with the lense and fill the gap that lots of people have a hard time grasping between model and photographer. It was a very good day.

Day Five: Wishes, Love, Laughter.

K is starting to fill my days with his laughter, smiles, talking, coos, and attempts at crawling and walking. He's 4 months and 3 days old, today...and he's turning over from his back to his belly and back again. He's so strong! He's so advanced for a 4 month old. Every thing I read and everybody I ask tells me he's just growing and gaining knowledge faster than most infants his age. I have never been so proud of one of my own accomplishments in my life-or of somebody else's. This child brings me both in one tiny, fat little package. I love my son.

Day Four: Practice Makes...Shit.

Getting used to being in front of the camera, again...while testing out my timer. Skillllssss, I know.

Day Three: Finally Found It.

I have been looking for that motherly bond that I know I'm supposed to have for four months and one day, now. I finally found it in his smile.

Day Two: Innocence.

My friend's 20 month old daughter, Natalie.
It was so beautiful to watch this young girl walking through the sand at our state park. She was so free, and so sure of herself. One thing stopped her and she still tries to tell us about it in her gibberish today. She was walking towards some tall grass I wanted to shoot her in. Her feet got stuck in the mud. Determined, she kept trying to walk. "One foot after the other, Nat..." is what I kept chanting to her. Then, she sunk in ankle deep.
Defeat was written all over her cute little face, and she started to cry. I put down my camera (also in the mud) and reached in to pick her up. Before I knew it, my feet were stuck to. I bursted out laughing. "No! No!" is what Natalie was yelling. I eventually got us out and she looked at her shoes, pointed, and started to cry again. I told her it was a lesson learned. When you're obviously stuck, rather than try to go further, try to figure out how to escape.

Day One: Dead Zone.

It's hard to explain the life style of my family. Though this picture is quite a small caption of our not so humble home, I thought it might give you a feel of our environment. We're working on things.